Bummed is not strong enough a word.

In a continuation of the stalking I have been doing, I emailed Jill from the placement office again today, mostly as a reminder to her that I'm still alive.  The results were not good.

Me: Hi Jill,

I was just wondering if you know whether or not the program I was nominated for (Health Extension, Sub-Saharan Africa, Feb 2011) is still open and if there is still time for me to be invited to this program.  I am looking at the training calendar for the New York State Department of Health AIDS Institute and I'd like to schedule more training for myself before I leave for Peace Corps.  Space is limited so I'd rather not sign up for anything that I'm likely to have to cancel. 

Any information you're able to give me would be greatly appreciated.  I haven't heard from my Placement Specialist yet, so if this is a question better saved for him or her, let me know and I will continue to be patient. 

Thank you,
Tracy

Jill:

Tracy,

 

Thank you for your email.  Your Placement Specialist currently has your file and will be completing her final assessment and evaluation of application materials sometime within the next month or so.  While I do not know what program she is potentially considering you for, I do know that the program you had been nominated to is already full.  This probably means she will be looking at a program with a tentative departure in March for you.

 

This is all the information I have regarding this right now. You will have to wait until your Placement Specialist contacts you with follow up questions to receive more.  We appreciate your patience during this process.

 

Thank you.

 

Best,

 

Jill 

  
So my program is full.  That really fucking sucks.  First of all, because I now have to wait until at least March to depart, and second, because this means it is less likely that I will be going to Africa and more likely that I will be going to Eastern Europe.  Blerg.  Also, I feel like I could have made it into the original program provided my medical clearance didn't take so long.  But it did, and there's nothing I can do about it now.  And now I've annoyed Jill, too.  I'm considering re-stalking my recruiter, James, with a freak out email, but I'm thinking this will only make me more anxious.  I'd really like to hear from my Placement Specialist regarding my options.  As much as I'd like to leave ASAP, I'm also willing to wait to ensure that I get Africa.  I know, I'm supposed to be flexible and all, but I've accidentally gotten my heart set on Africa because I've been thinking about it for the last 8 months that I've been nominated, and before that it was the center of all of my PC fantasies.  I'm really broken-hearted about this.  BLERG.

Fat Tracy would like to eat a gallon of ice cream and one of those huge canisters shaped like a barrel of generic cheese balls, followed by a really long nap.  Skinny Tracy is having a hard time convincing Fat Tracy to get on the elliptical instead.   Wagers on the winner?